THIS IS CRAP!

i was reading my last post and it sounded so ridiculous. demmet. actually, i was only kidding. though some of it were quite true. never mind anyway.

Know why people are acting the way they do? Mainly it’s because of the way they were brought up, the way society molded them, and I am so damned unfortunate to be living in this kind of society. I am in no way blaming my country, because I do dearly love my country more than anything. I am talking about my particular society, my little cramped space, where hapless people forsakenly dwell. And why the hell am I speaking in English?

Ampotah. Hindi ko malaman kung bakit ako napapaligiran ng ganung mga klaseng tao. May gusto akong balikang oras kung saan yung mga tao sa paligid ko eh malaki ang pag-unawa sa akin. Alam ko suicidal ako, at maswerte dahil hanggang ngayon eh hindi pa rin ako natutuluyan (sa kasamaang palad). Pero how much is too much? May mga oras na seryosong pinag-iisipan kong magpakamatay. It was during last 2 summers na muntikan na akong magbigti. Astig? Hindi. Dahil hindi ko naman natuloy. Sana nga natuloy ko na lang para at least ma-tv man lang ako.

Anywho, alam ko namang maaga akong mamamatay. Nararamdaman ko. Oo. Seryoso. Medyo may takot, pero handa na ako. I mean, diba mas astig yung wala ka nang pinoproblema? Wala na akong pake sa iisipin mo (na tinatakbuhan ko ang buhay). Tatawanan lang kita kung saka-sakaling mamatay ako, at nakikita kang nagdurusa. Oh, diba? Revenge. Can you smell the sweet scent of it?

Bakit kamo tingin ko malapit na akong mamatay? Dahil ngayong 2nd year, pilit ko nang ginagawa lahat ng bagay na gusto kong gawin. Yung passion ko sa art, sa collecting stuffs. Lahat. Para bang ang dating, habang maaga gusto ko magawa ko na lahat. Para akong nagmamadali sa buhay. Weird talaga.

Welcome to the slightly deranged mind of Ryouka Yuzuki. Welcome to my life.

T4 (Terminator four for the deranged) to be shown this year. Rockoolios.

On the other hand, I am a frustrated artist/painter, play director, sound engineer, interior designer, graphics designer, vector creator and many other roles I am dying to do. (Who gives a fucking damn? XD)

Nevertheless, I will buy my own painting tools by the end of the sem and will paint a modern art painting for my brother’s house. Eat that.